Who will you be?

As I'm getting closer to the end of my first trimester, I can't help but wonder how the baby is.  Who does the baby look like?  How will the personality be?  Will it be like Paul or me?  I hope he/she gets my eyes haha!   I seriously can't believe time has flown by.  It was like just yesterday I was trying my best to just make it through the first trimester.  Now, onto my second!  What joy!

As I'm going through all my baby apps, it shows that Baby Peanut is the size of a large plum.  I laugh because I find myself walking through Krogers and randomly picking up whatever fruit the baby size will be and hold it against my belly and smile.  And of course, some random stranger will look at me and I just give them a big cheese like I always do.  It's been so fun being pregnant.  Such a happy moment, actually one of my happiest moments ever.

I can't wait till the baby gets older.  Will it be a boy?  Paul played soccer, I played basketball and volleyball (sad to say, by high school, my height killed my future to be an athlete.)  Will it be book smart?  I was a straight A student and Paul claims to be a genius.  Will it be a girl?  Omgosh, if it's a girl!  I want her to do to all the things I did.  Ballet, tap, jazz, gymnastics, sing, violin, cheer, NAILS (haha kidding, well not really.)  I was very lucky my parents let me explore and do all the things I did.  One thing I've learned, I never gave up.   I wasn't allowed to quit, which I think now has made me who I am today.

Which brings me to the subject of what kind of parent will I be?  At times, I think gosh my parents were so strict, but now, it wasn't so bad and it was for the good.  It made me who I am today, which I'm thankful.  I hope I will be strong like my parents and be able to juggle all the things and times and activities.  They had four kids in sports and all.  I only have one and I'm scared!  I'm glad my mom and I worked together for so many years.  All those talks, lectures, and wisdom she had, I miss them and learned so much.  It's definitely hard and heart breaking at times to realize that my mom isn't going to be around, but I've established so many relationships within these past four years, that it has helped so much to deal with her passings.  I hope one day, Baby Peanut will read this and see what joy and happiness he/she has brought to me.

We went registering, well started a little, and it was sooooo much stuff!  Paul was so funny and he seemed to enjoy all the things we were looking at.  Thanks to his cousin Anna, for the "Baby Bargains" book, our eyes were glued and on the hunt.  It's just exciting that now we get to shop for our kid, kinda surreal but happy!

Two more days till 12 weeks= 3 months
Next Doctor appointment is March 26th.
Weight gained= 1.8 lbs
belly status= it's popped out!  but still in that "hmm she looks pregnant, but could be fat" stage =)

The end.

11 weeks and I can eat!

I have the most amazing husband ever!!!!

Last night I thought he was playing with his fish, but he actually was cooking. While I went to bed early, and I woke up with a pot of pho, pot of Chao, and a pot of Thit kho.

I haven't been eating so much, but one day my dad made Thit kho but only shared a tiny portion. I inhaled it like nothing. Paul noticed I ate it and I must have raved about it. So he called my dad up for the recipe. This totally made my heart smile and got me all warm.

I came home from work and ate up everything like there was no tomorrow. I'm so happy to finally eat eat eat! Thanks to my love, he treats me so well! He's gonna be an amazing daddy!

Now I have heartburn, but it's okay! So worth it! Baby was well fed tonight.

The end. Love you P

The baby morpher and going to 11 weeks

So I went on thebump.com and tried to see what my baby would look like.

Results:
White skin
Red hair

Hahaha um Paul said I had explaining to do. Hilarious.

Though it showed a boy... Or maybe it's a butch-like girl??? Just My luck!

Belly is slowly showing. Not big yet. Still tired but getting better. Please let this exhaustion be over.

Your heartbeat was a song to me

We heard the baby's heartbeat!!! Went to the doctor's today. Dr. Kirkwood is actually the father of a good friend of mine and he couldn't have made this first experience any better.

He helped explain all my nervousness and made me feel so at ease with all my thoughts.

He then began to put the gel on my belly. He said there was a 40% chance we might not hear it, so I was ready.

Then... Voila! Thump! Thump! Thump! So fast! I got so excited I cried and I looked at Paul's face and he was smiling so big his eyes disappeared. This is a miracle and Dr. Kirkwood smiled and said you are doing amazing!

I guess all the vitamins and the organic fruits and veggies is all working. Baby, mommy has never eaten this healthy, but it is so worth it! I love you and I'm so excited!!!

Big brother Bentley

Throughout this whole experience how could I forget my shadow? Bentley has been with me through all my days. He's the one laying next to my feet, laying his head on my belly and always on guard if he hears a sound and following me to all my bathroom trips. God love him.

Last night after work, he got a special surprise! Thank you to cousin Anna for his adorable tee. He was so proud wearing it that when I tried to take it off, he growled at me. No lie!

He's gonna be a wonderful buddy to baby Peanut. They're already a team.

You are 10 weeks baby Peanut!

Baby Peanut,

30 more weeks to go!

Last night Daddy Paul came home from his vacation and we were so happy!

He saw bisons, buffalo, snowmobiled, snowboarded, and had a blast. Funny how he would tell his story and then finish it will, "I took it easy because of I thought of you and peanut." He's so in love with you baby!

Did you love his story book reading last night? Thanks to cousin Lisa for the book by Dr. Seuss, "Oh baby! The places you'll go." I read it the other and totally cried my eyes out, then last night daddy read it to you, and I teared up again! Such a happy moment. We are so thrilled to have you.

He got you a little gift... Bibs! I love elephants, so he got you an elephant bib and sushi bib bc he loves sushi. It's gonna be so cute on you.

Lately been feeling good. Evenings are a bit rough with queasy feelings but overall I'm okay. I gained 1.4lbs. Haha and I swear my belly is starting to pop and round off. Uncle Jeff saw my belly and was so excited! It's finally real! He said he's gonna have to roll me over when I'm in my third trimester :)

Happy 10 weeks! We love you.

Baby Peanut..It is time to call you baby prune!

My dearest joy,

You're 9 weeks and 2 days!! You're the size of a prune!! My mom loved eating prunes, me eh not so much.

You have made this pregnancy a pleasant one. It's lent now so Fridays are fish day. Your daddy is in Jackson Hole, Wyoming and he texts me every morning saying hi to me and you, but is calling you Mason, so you're a boy right now :)

Can't wait to figure out who you will be, but we might make it a surprise. I'm not great on surprises but it would be fun. I hope you enjoyed my singing last night. I don't think you enjoyed the long high notes because you cut off my air flow but at least we fell asleep. I miss those singing days. Maybe having you will bring back my vocals and we can sing all sorts of songs everyday!!

This week, I came home from Miami with 2 packages at the door. Thank you to cousins, Cathy & Lisa, for the lovely gifts. It feels like Christmas! You're already so spoiled and loved. This makes my heart smile.

I could continue writing a novel today, but I will contain myself.

Mommy loves you! Everyone is excited! Xoxo

P.S: daddy if you're reading this, we miss you and have fun in the mountains and take lots of pictures. Baby peanut will be snowboarding with you one day soon.